“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” – Romans 8:38-39
The morning sun was just peaking over the horizon as he rolled over. The first thing he noticed was that he was not in his bedroom. It took a moment or two for him to recall what had happened and how he had ended up in this place. His vision was very blurred, and breathing was difficult because a tube was coming from his mouth and taped to his cheek. Despite his attempts to move his body, he couldn’t. It’s as if his muscles couldn’t react to his brains commands. Through his squinting eyes he saw the IV bag hanging and tubes connected to his arm, wires connected to his forehead and a myriad of machines with numbers, making beeping sounds. He noticed that his chest and abdomen were wrapped in white bandages, and there was a large circle of red and black right in the center of the bandages. Suddenly his mind began recalling what happened. As the memories began to fill his mind from the night before, a pain overtook him and he felt himself drifting back into a state of unconsciousness.
His mind did not stop though. He felt as if he were floating above his physical body and looking down upon himself. He saw the hospital bed, the equipment and monitors, the blood stained bandages and his mother in the corner crying. Then his eyes were captured by the tattoos covering his arms and shoulders. The naked nymph that he had gotten in Mexico, the skull and cross bones, the knife blade dripping blood, the snake wrapping around the shoulder, the tattoo of the gun and bullet entering through the eye of a child. The tattoos caused his mind to roll through his life history. Small glimpses from his youth through today began to fill his vision in his unconscious state. The life of partying, drugs and violence; the people he had hurt, the pain he had caused others all began to be revealed to him. He saw all the women he had used and abused. He saw the children now addicted to crack cocaine because he sold them their first joint. He saw his mother’s tears as he slapped her and slammed his bedroom door in her face when he was just a boy himself. He saw his dad taking his own life in their bathroom at home. Then he saw himself as a small boy playing baseball and riding his new bicycle after school. He saw his best friend and he laughing and playing with Hot wheels and GI Joes. The sky was blue, the sun was bright and the grass was green as he saw himself learning how to ride a tricycle.
Suddenly, his eyes moved to the machine in the corner the beeps were slowing and the line had very few bars on the screen. Something was happening as he looked at his body in that bed. His chest was barely rising and falling any longer. A bright flash of light and he was back in his dream like state. He saw himself as a twelve year old boy walking down the aisle in church. He recalled the large cross with Jesus hanging at the front of the sanctuary as he made his way down the long aisle toward the minister standing by his dad’s coffin. As he touched the hard cold wood, he felt a hand on his shoulder. Looking up it was Jesus Christ looking down into his eyes, with more love than he had ever felt before. He said four simple words, “I’ll always love you.”
A blur flashed before the man’s eyes and he was now standing in the same church, except the church was empty, dark and cold. His eyes lifted to see the cross on the wall, Christ hanging there still. In his vision, the man began weeping bitterly at the choices he had made in life since the last time he knelt on these steps. Then a hand was on his shoulder and looking up, Christ stood before him, looking down upon him with incredible love. “I’ll always love you.”, He whispered. The man raised his arms showing his tattoos and scars from the needles and from the time he tried to take his life. “But Jesus you don’t understand the things I’ve done, and people I’ve hurt”, the man cried out. “I LOVE YOU.”, Jesus replied. “No. I raped that girl and I stole that woman’s purse. I was in prison for shooting that kid in a fight. I robbed the liquor store and beat that old man. I haven’t stepped foot in this church in 20 years.”, the man argued back. “I LOVE YOU.”, Jesus replied, and then raised the man to his feet and embraced him. The man saw his own arms as Jesus lifted him and they were wiped clean, the tattoos were gone as was the bandages.
“Nothing you do can separate you from Me and My love for you.”, Jesus said as He placed a kiss upon the man’s forehead. He was swept away through the blurry darkness back to the hospital room and then total darkness. His eyes opened once again, blurry looking up at the ceiling and the tubes and wires coming from his body. Shifting his eyes to the side, he saw the monitors and the line was normal once again. There were two doctors saying he’s stable now. He saw his mother standing by his bed. Her hand touching his face as tears flowed from her eyes, she smiled and said, “Welcome back. We thought we lost you.”
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His mind did not stop though. He felt as if he were floating above his physical body and looking down upon himself. He saw the hospital bed, the equipment and monitors, the blood stained bandages and his mother in the corner crying. Then his eyes were captured by the tattoos covering his arms and shoulders. The naked nymph that he had gotten in Mexico, the skull and cross bones, the knife blade dripping blood, the snake wrapping around the shoulder, the tattoo of the gun and bullet entering through the eye of a child. The tattoos caused his mind to roll through his life history. Small glimpses from his youth through today began to fill his vision in his unconscious state. The life of partying, drugs and violence; the people he had hurt, the pain he had caused others all began to be revealed to him. He saw all the women he had used and abused. He saw the children now addicted to crack cocaine because he sold them their first joint. He saw his mother’s tears as he slapped her and slammed his bedroom door in her face when he was just a boy himself. He saw his dad taking his own life in their bathroom at home. Then he saw himself as a small boy playing baseball and riding his new bicycle after school. He saw his best friend and he laughing and playing with Hot wheels and GI Joes. The sky was blue, the sun was bright and the grass was green as he saw himself learning how to ride a tricycle.
Suddenly, his eyes moved to the machine in the corner the beeps were slowing and the line had very few bars on the screen. Something was happening as he looked at his body in that bed. His chest was barely rising and falling any longer. A bright flash of light and he was back in his dream like state. He saw himself as a twelve year old boy walking down the aisle in church. He recalled the large cross with Jesus hanging at the front of the sanctuary as he made his way down the long aisle toward the minister standing by his dad’s coffin. As he touched the hard cold wood, he felt a hand on his shoulder. Looking up it was Jesus Christ looking down into his eyes, with more love than he had ever felt before. He said four simple words, “I’ll always love you.”
A blur flashed before the man’s eyes and he was now standing in the same church, except the church was empty, dark and cold. His eyes lifted to see the cross on the wall, Christ hanging there still. In his vision, the man began weeping bitterly at the choices he had made in life since the last time he knelt on these steps. Then a hand was on his shoulder and looking up, Christ stood before him, looking down upon him with incredible love. “I’ll always love you.”, He whispered. The man raised his arms showing his tattoos and scars from the needles and from the time he tried to take his life. “But Jesus you don’t understand the things I’ve done, and people I’ve hurt”, the man cried out. “I LOVE YOU.”, Jesus replied. “No. I raped that girl and I stole that woman’s purse. I was in prison for shooting that kid in a fight. I robbed the liquor store and beat that old man. I haven’t stepped foot in this church in 20 years.”, the man argued back. “I LOVE YOU.”, Jesus replied, and then raised the man to his feet and embraced him. The man saw his own arms as Jesus lifted him and they were wiped clean, the tattoos were gone as was the bandages.
“Nothing you do can separate you from Me and My love for you.”, Jesus said as He placed a kiss upon the man’s forehead. He was swept away through the blurry darkness back to the hospital room and then total darkness. His eyes opened once again, blurry looking up at the ceiling and the tubes and wires coming from his body. Shifting his eyes to the side, he saw the monitors and the line was normal once again. There were two doctors saying he’s stable now. He saw his mother standing by his bed. Her hand touching his face as tears flowed from her eyes, she smiled and said, “Welcome back. We thought we lost you.”
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You may feel that you have done terrible things in your life up to this point. I want you to know that despite those choices, those actions, God’s love for you has never changed. He loved you when you were born just as much as He loves you now. His love is unchanging and just when you think you’re beyond His grace, He will lift you up, clean off the past and carry you forward to a new day. Perhaps today is that day for you to receive His offering of grace and love. If so, please pray this prayer with me, and invite Jesus into your heart as your Lord and Savior today.
Prayer:
Heavenly Father,
I come before you this day as a sinner. I ask Your forgiveness for my sinful ways and I turn away from that life. I lay my sins at Your feet and acknowledge that You are my salvation. I accept Jesus Christ as my Savior and Lord of my life. I recognize that He lived, He died and He rose again on the 3rd day, to take away my sins and by His blood my sins are washed clean. I give my life to You to use and bring glory and honor to You in all that I do. Transform me from my sinful ways and cover me with Your grace forever more. Thank You for dying for me to receive eternal life with You one day. Amen
If you prayed this prayer, I believe you are born again as a new creation in Jesus Christ. Please seek out and join a church in your local community to continue your growth as a child of God Almighty.
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